Category Archives: personal essays

in search of sunshine

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Lately I’ve been in search of sunshine…metaphorically speaking. I know I’m not alone, and that many of us are struggling with our health right now, both mentally and physically. My anxiety levels are most definitely at an all-time high. We’re only mid-pandemic, our children can’t get vaccinated yet (and half of the country won’t), climate change is happening right before our eyes, and I realized that breaks from news and activism are necessary. It’s a lot…for anyone. I’ve been struggling with a (new + scary) health issue, juggling work and homeschool as always, and managing our household. In the event you’re also feeling overwhelmed (umm…who isn’t these days), I’m sharing some of my favorite therapeutic Instagram accounts. I created a collection within the app where I save the most inspiring posts to revisit when I’m in need of a boost, which I highly recommend. These accounts either offer direct rays of sunshine, or will help guide you on your path towards them. Feel free to comment with your go-to inspirational Insta accounts…sending love to you all! xo, Susan

@jamievaron @morganharpernichols @newhappyco @yasminecheyenne @keeleyshawart @nytherapist @lizandmollie @thejeffreymarsh @adamgrant @cleowade @__nitch @moonandcheeze @charliemackesy @bradmontague @alex_elle

signs of sanctuary (part deux)

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We just got the keys to our new home in Philadelphia (yay), and this beauty welcomed us in her full spring glory. I’m obsessed and have photographed it from every window that faces it! I can’t wait to share more of the house soon but right now we’re surrounded by boxes and chaos and have to dig ourselves out of that first. It’s exciting (and anxiety inducing) to be back in “civilization” but the fact that we have a yard and a mature garden makes the adjustment so much less stressful. Every time I look at this tree (or any of the blooms), I exhale. We have a new sanctuary, and we hope to enjoy it for quite some time. For more blossoms and a few sneak peeks, check out the “new house” Stories highlight on Instagram!

signs of sanctuary

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One year ago today we took sanctuary here, and as we prepare to emerge from the woods (both literally and metaphorically), the feelings have come at me like a wrecking ball. I know I’m not alone, and while it’s easy to become fatigued by the “anniversary” posts, there’s a valid reason why there are so many. We’ve experienced a collective trauma–some much more than others. We’re among the lucky ones…we haven’t lost any family members, we have our health, financial security, and so much love. Our privilege, however, does not exempt us from the darkness. While we’re seeing the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel, I’m approaching it hesitantly…not allowing myself to feel comfort just yet.

One year ago today, my (very Irish) grandfather came to me in a dream and took me to the end of a rainbow…it helped make the road ahead feel safer, despite the uncertainty. I’ll never forget those feelings – equal parts wonder and fear. Perhaps that mixture isn’t a recipe to hide from, but one to embrace. Stepping into a new chapter with such a cocktail of emotion requires courage, but that bravery is usually rewarded with amazing and unexpected results (we’ve been down this road before). On our last visit to our new home, we spotted a triple rainbow reflection on the bathroom counter. Call it coincidence, call it the luck of the Irish…call it a sign. I followed a rainbow into the woods, so I’ll follow one out too.

snow days are the best days

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Snow days are the best days…especially in our family! I’ve been quiet here on the blog (although active on social), as we’ve been savoring the season. I grew up in the Northeast and so many of my childhood memories are connected to the fluffy white stuff that falls from the sky and turns the world into a magical wonderland. My parents used to have to literally drag me inside after hours in the snow with a chapped face, nearly blue lips, and snow-filled boots. After a few decent winter storms, the “big one” came along a few weeks ago here in the Poconos, and gifted us with over thirty inches (yes, 30″). It started the day before and then got super heavy overnight…we woke up in Narnia and it was breathtakingly beautiful…

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first but not the last

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Today was emotional for so many reasons, but holding my daughter as the first female Vice President was sworn into office was the highlight. I cried tears of joy as Kamala Harris took the oath of office, and held onto both of my children tighter than ever. I feel hopeful for their future today, and I’m going to hold onto that feeling as long as possible. Marie is wearing the K is for Kamala t-shirt, and holding a printable pennant by Tina Green. I’m so proud that she understands the significance of this day and shares the joy – look at that smile! What a joyous day for us all…now the year can truly begin.